|This is a goal. I keep trying.|
I have much to be happy about.
I am learning to be happy with what I am presented with. When anger, sadness or envy arrive to squeeze my head and turn my world back into the darker place that it once was, I now have some tools to grapple with them, taking back the power they have over me and reestablishing peace. It doesn't mean I am pretending that my body doesn't' hurt or my feelings haven't been bruised or that a betrayal hasn't happened. It just means that I don't give them as much power as they once had.
I give much of the credit to Al-Anon and a counselor that also "works a program". They have opened my eyes like a blind person regaining sight. Al-Anon made me look at me and take responsibility. Not in a bad way but in an authentic and tough way. I am no longer doing Al-Anon because I realized that ACA (Adult Children of Alcoholics) is much more relevant and effective for my circumstances. Basically the same idea with a slightly different focus. I've found a fantastic meeting and I will stick with it.
I highly recommend........it's possible that life can get better......so much better.
Meanwhile, be kind today. It'll do your soul good.