Hospital

Sitting in the urgent care with the Boy Scout after he took a tumble. He’s trying to keep a stiff upper lip but I know he’s hurting.

A gal walks by with an elderly lady on her arm, the strong resemblance is saying mother or maybe an older sister. Her charge, being gently guided, looks down with her eyes nearly closed, shielding herself from outside stimuli. I remember that with my mom. When her body was being assaulted by the vicious chemicals meant to, for just awhile, extend her life and also when it got closer to the end, she checked out and went within….deep within. I’m not talking coma here, she still was with us but only just. It scared me when she went inside and I would try to draw her out to alleviate my own fears but I understand better now. These bodies of ours, they know what to do. 

Giving birth did that to me in a milder form. It is often a joyous occasion but it hurts…a lot. And everyone is there talking and encouraging, laughing and remembering. What I wanted most was to left alone and let me get on with the job at hand. Not completely alone but, well, allowed to go inside.

When it was time for mom to leave this earth, she was so deep inside that we could not reach her anymore.  I hope that it is a peaceful place to travel to as we make our final exit. 

I’ll let you know how it goes with Boy Scout. Urgent care is packed so it may be a while.


Update…sore but not broken. 


Comments

  1. JeanieJuly 30, 2022 at 7:08 AM

    Not broken is a plus. But I hope the soreness heals fast. Yes, we all hope that going within is going peaceful.

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  2. NewRobin13July 30, 2022 at 7:11 AM

    Really good news update. Glad to know it's not broken. Hope the healing goes well.
    Your memory of your mom's time to leave earth reminds me so much of my mom's exit as well. We could not reach her anymore...

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  3. ColetteJuly 30, 2022 at 10:17 AM

    I was a hospice volunteer for a short time in the 1980s. I remember during the training they told us volunteers that towards the end the dying will turn away, even literally turning their heads towards the wall to avoid interaction. They taught us not to take it personally, turning inwards is part of the work of dying.

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  4. BillJuly 30, 2022 at 11:46 AM

    Glad to hear his fall didn't break any bones. Hopefully the pain will lessen quickly.

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  5. Marie SmithJuly 30, 2022 at 6:01 PM

    Hospitals are in need of urgent care themselves these days. Glad it worked out okay for the Boy Scout.

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  6. Shari BurkeJuly 31, 2022 at 10:48 AM

    Glad no bones were broken! Hoping for swift healing and the elimination of pain!

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  7. SabineAugust 2, 2022 at 8:43 AM

    Sore can be hard enough, even if not broken. May he recover speedily.
    I wholeheartedly second your thoughts on childbirth, clearly remember "telling" all and sundry to shut up and let me get on with it. Whereby "telling" is a euphemism, swear words were involved.

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    1. LindaAugust 2, 2022 at 9:43 AM

      I may, in fact, have come up with a few original. Luckily not caught on tape.

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