Sunday, September 26, 2021

I Like You But........

I surprisingly find myself secretary/chairperson of an English Speaking ACA meeting in Munich Germany. Not quite sure how it happened but there you go. I love the Germans in this meeting. They are smart, introspective, serious and kind of funny in a quirky way.

Last week I prepped for the meeting which means typing out literature to copy and paste to the chat, have the meeting script up-to-date and putting any ACA news in the chat. I got all ready, started the zoom meeting and then I waited, and waited. About 5 minutes in I started to get nervous I had done something wrong. I went back and checked my zoom link, double checked I had the right time. It was good. Still nobody.

Then my brain started doing what my brain is wont to do. Brain: "Nobody likes this meeting anymore. You're not a good chair, you're boring. You're no good at it, not smart enough." Deep breathe. Heart: "No, no that's not it Linda. It must be something else." I google to see if there is a national German holiday. No holiday......hmmmm. Ok, well, not much could be done. Closed the meeting and comforted myself with positive words.

This week, I opened the meeting 10 minutes early. Two minutes before and still nobody there. I feel a twinge of nervousness but settle it down with breathing. Finally two people show at once. A third and then quickly behind them a 4th, 5th and 6th. It was a small meeting but they were all there with smiles on their faces. Apparently there had been an AA / ACA  combined miniature golf  “get together” that must have been very popular. They all went. 

It was nice to hear that it wasn't personal but, mostly, I was glad that I didn't use the occasion as an opportunity for self-flagellation. 

I like being liked but I like liking myself way more.

Happy Sunday!

6 comments:

  1. Nice job of holding off until you knew for sure the reason people didn't show up.

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  2. There is nothing better than liking ones self. After all, partners, roommates and friends may move here and there -- but you're always with you!

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  3. Wow, talk about being internationally involved!

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  4. Good for you
    You pulled your bra straps up and did it

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  5. While reading this I thought you were going to say the time difference was forgotten. Glad it worked out. I'd call this all progress. I think our new lives are gonna work out just fine!

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