I Remain......

Isn’t life funny?

For the first time in my 58 years I feel connection. I have a couple of dear friends of my heart and a sweet, younger friend that has walked side by side with me in our healing process. There is a small group of ladies I truly enjoy. I have fallen in love with my neighbors and the feeling of belonging that has come with the blooming friendships is fresh and wonderful. And then there is Nancy, our 95 year old friend, with whom saying goodbye would be so very hard.

I’ve watched as the Boy Scout has also learned what it is to be honest and vulnerable. He is more and more setting aside his ego for something better. 

As we face this coming change, I am clinging to what I have here in this tiny house. Not the things but true kinship.

My mantra shall be, “Remain open to the possibilities”.  Perhaps if I say it enough, I will eventually feel it in my heart.

Comments

  1. anne marie in phillyMay 2, 2021 at 7:06 AM

    something wonderful is about to happen for you and the boy scout!

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  2. Marie SmithMay 2, 2021 at 7:21 AM

    You will take your heart experiences with you wherever you go. They will hold you in good stead. Thinking of you…

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  3. Debra She Who SeeksMay 2, 2021 at 9:35 AM

    Yes, stay open and loving! May the future hold good things for you!

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  4. BillMay 2, 2021 at 11:34 AM

    I find change fun and exciting but also a bit scary. It always works out though just maybe not the way you think or expect. Have a wonderful Sunday, Linda.

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  5. JeanieMay 3, 2021 at 10:20 AM

    Kinship is the best, my friend. Above all else.

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  6. SabineMay 3, 2021 at 12:55 PM

    Sounds like you are heading in the right direction. Trust yourself.

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  7. My life so farMay 4, 2021 at 7:11 PM

    Sending hugs.

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