Progress Not Perfection

As I reflect on Christmas day, a few things come to mind.

There was a incident that was so very uncomfortable, and I handled it pretty damn good, not perfectly but really well. And even better, when I saw a text that seemed to judge my behavior, I stayed present and did not absorb that person's opinion of the incident. I remained true to myself and gave myself a big pat on the back. Well done chica. I think it showed growth and for that I am grateful.

In addition to that, the Secret Keeper came for the dinner that my sweet Boy Scout lovingly prepared. It was easy and fairly light hearted. The conversation was fine. Perhaps a little more gossipy than I would have liked but really OK. The food was great and the kids got to be with their dad, whom they love dearly. I’d say a big win. When I see him, I no longer think of what happened between us. I just feel a little sad and now that I know how to feel sad instead of shoving down or throwing it onto someone else, it worked out alright.

I missed two of my kids but am happy they are following their own paths. I never thought that I would be experiencing a sedate, quiet Christmas. In my mind, they would always have noise and bustle and I liked the picture my mind painted. Ah well, that's what I get for thinking I could predict the future.

My New Years promise to myself? Here and Now, as much as possible.

Happy New Years!!!!!

Comments

  1. Debra She Who SeeksDecember 29, 2019 at 6:16 AM

    A quiet and sedate Christmas can be quite lovely and it sounds like yours was! Have a wonderful New Year's and best wishes for 2020!

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  2. ColetteDecember 29, 2019 at 6:23 AM

    Here and Now! What could be better? Congrats on handling your difficult situation to your satisfaction. You did well.

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  3. anne marie in phillyDecember 29, 2019 at 6:46 AM

    sounds like you had a quiet xmess. how lovely; so did we! noise doesn't make a holiday better; I think it ruins it. here's to growth in 2020, linda...for ALL of us!

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  4. SabineDecember 29, 2019 at 9:22 AM

    That sounds really positive. Well done and a good start for the new year!

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  5. Marie SmithDecember 29, 2019 at 1:03 PM

    It sounds like a great Christmas! A quiet Christmas is good!

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  6. JeanieDecember 30, 2019 at 3:11 PM

    It sounds like a good Christmas, a positive one, surrounded by people who are a part of your world, past and present. I love this. And your Happy New Year resolution. Bravo!

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