It can be hard to put my whole self out there. It can be hard to know who I am in some situations. When someone from the past asks about child #3, they will say things like, How is Prescott doing? How’s he liking England or Portland or his work etc. When that happens now, because everyone important or close has been told, I have to dig deep. Who am I in this situation? Do I just say, “SHE”, and go on with the conversation as if it is nothing big? It is big! Do I smile wide and say “oh, she’s in the process of transitioning”, without going into anything else. Do I let them ask questions? Do I know how to answer? This is her personal journey. I am a bystander, a caring one, but bystander just the same. Do I avoid the subject completely and just be careful with pronouns so that I am not disloyal. If I am avoiding, am I being disloyal? Maybe they haven’t earned the right to hear her story. There is a protective defensiveness that I have to be aware of too. My feelings are still comple...
Yeah, blogging is great, isn't it!
ReplyDeleteI love the blogging world! I have made the most amazing connections on it.
ReplyDeleteThe blogging world helped me feel less alone. I also gained a feeling of camaraderie...there are so many of us who think the same way, feel the same way, have the same problems. I love being a part of this small world.
ReplyDeleteYour made me spontaneously sing Bill Wither's "Lean on Me"! Thank you for being there, too!
ReplyDeleteLovely.
ReplyDeleteHiya hunny, yes, you are very right, it's a warm place to be *smiles*
ReplyDeleteDear Lind!
ReplyDeletei loved this quote ,we all speak behalf of our personal experiences i am little weird about this situation
i feel that i have no one around who thinks like me and can understand the true perspetive of my words and response
yet since childhood i have a secret imagery friend but it was somewhere in my unconsciousness
for ages i could not figure out who is he
but life and time told me that he was who created me ,he never left me alone and miraculously helped in worse situations may be he realized my true desire for Baili which mean FRIEND
you have hope and biggest proof is that you are fighting this battle without thinking about give up