I got to consider it for a second, doing an inner assessment. The answer came easy. "I have to make that a daily choice. It's not my default to feel content, quite the opposite. So I choose to be happy today.....I'd give me a 9." "How about you?", I asked. Ashley gave herself a 7. She said it would be higher but that she and her husband were in the process of moving and it was adding a bit of stress to their lives. Seven is not bad, especially while moving. I know things are not perfect for her, she has some real heartaches. She chooses.
I have another gal in my life who is a perennial victim. I don't judge her for it. I recognize that she has had a difficult life but I also see that it how she relates to the world and the people in it. She accepts all the accolades for her incredible strength but if you ask her about her well being you always get the deep breath and a, "I am hanging in there, trusting God and knowing it will get better." This seems to be how she copes. I hope someday she sees there is a better way to go at it.
I sit somewhere in between Ashley and the other gal but I am on a forward motion. Forward feels better and better.