Blogging Grateful

I'm done with all that history for now. 

I've moved on. I have learned to forgive and feel a compassionate love for a very sick man and I am still learning to forgive myself for the ways I failed him and my kids. I know that I did the best I could at the time but my eyes have been opened about the walls I had erected around me and the persistent intermittent anxiety that I unconsciously blamed on the behaviors of the people around me. 

From a bad situation, I am learning so much about unconditional love, acceptance, living one day at a time and breathing. I have learned that Al-Anon and Adult Children of Alcoholics have a tremendous amount of peace to impart if you are willing to put in the hard work. I have learned that changing the way you walk in and react to this world is very easy to say but incredibly hard to do but well worth the effort.

More than anything I have learned that we all have good and bad things going on in our lives. We get to choose if our focus is lamenting the negative or being grateful for all the good....even if there is little good and a lot of bad.....we get to chose our focus.


I choose grateful.













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  1. Marie SmithJuly 21, 2017 at 11:09 AM

    So true. The focus makes a difference.

    At a low point I did a gratitude journal. It changed my focus for sure! There is much good in every life.

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  2. Debra She Who SeeksJuly 21, 2017 at 12:17 PM

    I love a happy ending! So glad you got yours!

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    1. Linda dJuly 21, 2017 at 12:27 PM

      Thanks Debra. Appreciate all your insightful and supportive comments.

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  3. BirdieJuly 21, 2017 at 4:43 PM

    All the pain this has caused you makes me say it again. You. Are. Brave. I know you don't believe it but it's true.

    Brave - possessing or exhibiting *courage* or *courageous endurance*. Feeling or displaying no fear by temperament despite considerable risk to their own safety.

    Love to you and your family, dear one.

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    1. Linda dJuly 21, 2017 at 6:48 PM

      Thank you, so much, Birdie. You are very kind. ❤️❤️❤️

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  4. ColetteJuly 22, 2017 at 4:42 AM

    You inspire me. Often.

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  5. MarthaJuly 27, 2017 at 9:50 AM

    This is very inspiring. I'm so happy that you've moved on and doing so well xo

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    1. Linda dJuly 27, 2017 at 11:46 AM

      Thanks Martha....my Al-Anon, counselor and blogging community have certainly aided me to move in a better direction.

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  6. AnonymousJuly 29, 2017 at 10:45 AM

    I love a happy ending! So glad you got yours!


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