Portland, A Nice Place to Live

My trip is coming to an end. My son is busy today but we fit in time for a quick breakfast. We were all too tired to do much chatting but it was still nice.

I started feeling pretty melancholy at the idea of not seeing him for awhile and with the knowledge that this is now "home" to him. The scenery is gorgeous and I can see why he loves it so but it seems odd, him creating a new life that we sit only on the periphery. To many I guess it's seems normal but me and all but one of my sibs stayed very closely connected to our mother.  Home was always near her.

As the ache in my heart tightened I remembered the past two days, the four special women that have built a relationship with my son. Two of them expressed the desire to adopt should I feel the need to abdicate my parental role. They sang his praises, appreciating him for the same things that I have missed in his absence. The engaging conversations, the desire to use his passions in computers and learning to make their working lives easier and the commitment to accomplish his tasks and then some. I met some interesting  professors and saw some excellent senior capstone presentations. Scott and his Caitie brought me along to support their friend as they presented their presentations too.  A nice lunch with the partner-in-laws and some fun conversation over a number of meals. I also had my nails done by a sweet gal who share her life story and, to be honest, even with her broken English and my broken hearing, we both had tears in our eyes as I left. All in all a pretty good trip.

I had a melt down that I am not proud of but I made my amends as best I could and I am on my feet heading in for some sightseeing before I head for the airport with an improved attitude and a grateful but very tired Heart ❤️ 

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  1. Debra She Who SeeksApril 27, 2017 at 11:52 AM

    Glad you had a good visit with your son. And yes, we all have meltdowns from time to time, don't we?

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    1. Linda dApril 28, 2017 at 9:41 AM

      I guess we do. I am trying not to beat myself up too much.

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  2. Linda dApril 27, 2017 at 1:14 PM

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  3. BirdieApril 27, 2017 at 2:50 PM

    Not so long ago it seemed families stayed in the same community or pretty close. My whole family has always been on Vancouver Island. Now it seems people are not wanting those same connections. It makes me sad. My own boy lives a couple of hours away. We keep in contact all the time but it just isn't the same. I do think our chickadees do want to be closer to the best after they have their own children.

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  4. ColetteApril 27, 2017 at 4:09 PM

    Nice... This world is complex, with loved ones moving far and wide. Women suffer the most, we live to love.

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    1. Linda dApril 28, 2017 at 9:43 AM

      Connection is so important. I knew it would be likely that I would see distance with my boys but I hadn't counted on quite this far.

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  5. MarthaApril 28, 2017 at 5:06 AM

    I'm so glad you had such a nice visit with your son. He sounds like a wonderful young man and I hope he continues to do well. Meltdowns can be quite cleansing. Sometimes we need that, too.

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    1. Linda dApril 28, 2017 at 9:44 AM

      I just wish I could lessen the atomic fall out. Not too pretty.

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