There was my old life from way back, there was that difficult transition period that took about 7 years, there was my time in the desert that, thanks to God, an amazing family, learning to be grateful and Al-Anon, did not take nearly as long as I thought it would and there is now. My NOW is good, really good but not without its struggles.
Today I am grateful for a tiny little ACA Al-Anon meeting with a small group of warriors that will regularly share their experience, strength and hope with me. They let me know I am doing OK and that even though I have a long way to go, I am on the right track. Last night I was reminded that by doing a daily inventory any problems can be dealt with and resolved. Resentments do not have to erupt....they can be talked out and smoothed over. I am working on it.
In my experience, one cannot replace the unconditional love of a parent. There are times when my soul so desperately needs to be held in my mothers arms, with her telling me I will be OK, but learning to share my heartaches with others, acquiring the skills to state what I need helps tremendously.
Today I am also grateful for Boy Scouts that stay solid and on firm ground and do not flee when facing the storms. Surviving the storm the Boy Scout remains and tells me everything will be alright.