Stop Doing What You've Always Done

Addiction is a disease of not wanting to deal with life on lifes terms.

The insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result.

Clearly, even though I do not drink and I do not do drugs, the affect of alcoholism is prevalent. Despite my desire to change, I feel powerless and my life is unmanageable as it is. I ache and feel sad and don't know the answers to my problems.

Today, a new day, I start again to turn my life and my will over to the care of my God. Giving it up once again and expect that today goes better.  

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