Finding dynamic forgiveness and a healthy spirit in the face of betrayal and addiction.
Wednesday, June 17, 2015
Easy Does It
It," an expression used by AA and Al-Anon alike. An excellent reminder for
me, as an Al-Anon, to remember when a situation feels out of control. How many
situations are truly "out of control"? Very few.....it's just a feeling
in my gut that tightens and squeezes and releases Adrenalin and makes
EVERYTHING seem so out of focus and on hyper speed. It makes me want to stop,
guide, regulate, conjole, fix and put all the ducks in a neat little row, pat
them on they're heads and say, "Good job for understanding that this is
the best and most logical thing to do."
Making myself the Higher Power in life is exhausting, frustrating to my loved
ones who have their own paths to walk, and giving me the constant feeling of
failure. Easy Does It girl! Take a breath, relax and
take responsibility for me. Let those around me make their choices,
allow them to live their lives without the puncturing of my tender ego.
It's not about me.
Step 2 Came to believe that a Power
greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
This step was necessary before being able to
apply "Easy Does It". As long as I believed that I had even a
semblance of control over any one else in my life, then nothing was easy. What
a relief, when AFTER finishing my Step 4 and 5, there came an understanding of
what Step 2 meant. It meant freedom and peace and quiet breaths. It meant God
was in control and I am no longer even riding shot gun. I'm trying hard to sit
in the back seat with a good book, dozing occasionally while a
safe, competent, loving driver takes care of the trip.
When I am not running
the world, I have a much greater capacity for love, acceptance and kindness for
the people I encounter. A worthy goal.