My spouse is sick. He has a drug addiction, is an alcoholic, a diabetic and has been diagnosed with Bipolar I Disorder with psychotic aspects.
In addition to that, he did things that husbands should never do. Exposed me and the kids to things that you do not expose your loved ones to. Violated all his vows. He lied, stole, cheated and manipulated all while never missing work or being arrested or getting into an altercation (except for a dealer beating the crap out of him once).
After all that, does one just abandon an ill person to fend for themselves. Do you turn you back and say, "You're on your own buddy." A big part of me says "YOU BETCHA." Another part of me says that this is a very sick person and the father of my children and a child of God worthy of care and love.
I am struggling with doing the RIGHT thing. I truly don't know what that is.
Luckily, one thing I have learned is that I don't have to do anything right now. I can wait until tomorrow, or next week, or next month. I can wait until something absolutely has to be done or until my heart leads me in a direction that brings peace. Today I will just be. I will be kind and I will be tough and I will be me.
Just for today.