I have a tremendous sense of survival and self protection. I'm that person that plays it safe and follows the rules; rules of society and the rules that are in my head. Being a child of an alcoholic, in my distant past I decided that nothing good comes from drinking. I've never been drunk (although honestly it sounded pretty good in the last two years). I don't smoke, excercise fairly regularly, gave up a life long Pepsi habit, get my fiber and daily veggies, avoid public toilets...blah blah blah.
Pretty boring girl, I know. I recognize now that loving life and being in love with life are different. I spent much of my time trying to make sure that everything was OK (which it wasn't) and trying to control the outcome of each bump in the road that presented itself, living in survival mode. I feared the outcome, I feared what I would be left with.
Al-non has taught me that I have no control over any person but myself. Trying to do so was making myself and those around me crazy with my pointless efforts.
"When a person attempts to control someone else's life, it only reflects the lack of control they have on their own." --Daniel Chidiac
From this point forward, to the best of my ability, I am living in the here and now. Controlling how I react to situations. Allowing myself and my loved ones to try and to succeed or to fail....offering compassion and understanding instead of warnings and reprimands. Offering a listening ear instead of bailouts.
Loving this moment in time without fearing the future.
Are you living in the here and now? I'd love to hear about you've achieved the goal of being present in your life.
As usual, be kind to yourself.