An Invincible Summer - A Woman's Journey

Someone just parked in the street in front of the house. They got out of the car and walked towards the front door. Me:  Is that someone you know? BS: No, maybe, it might be Andrew. (as he gets up and goes towards the front door with a smile) Me: (heading to the back bedroom to write this blog, only to emerge if absolutely necessary) Are you the jump to get the front door type or the hide if possible type? I have different levels but my inner introvert is showing up this morning.

My first experience in "actual" winter. So far I can cope. Ask me again in April. I will need tips from my Canadian and European friends on how to go the long haul with my sanity in tact and my relationship still viable. For today, life is good. As I look at the window I see some blue.....and it makes me happy. I am posting a video from a channel called Green Renaissance. I love the channel and find it  calming and centering. I hope you enjoy.

This life is a challenge, isn't it? From early on until the day we leave, we will carry whatever it is that this world decides is our burden, our personal backpack whether nearly empty, half-full or completely overflowing. There are people who seem like their burden is far heavier than most but it is impossible to compare. We each have our own experience, our own truths, and our feelings within that truth which are completely valid and important and ours alone. Realizing all that, is important for me to remember that there is also tremendous beauty. My goal is to see the glorious within the challenges that are mine to carry. Most of the time I am able to achieve that. On occasion my head gets turned. My sight becomes blurry. The burden gets too heavy. I lose sight. Today, I hold those times closely to my heart. I wait, staying still and quiet (or get angry and cussing) until I can better express what it is I really feel. Sometimes I need to share it with someone else, someone...

Had an interview yesterday. It was interesting to say the least. A stoner/dealer who, some 11 years ago, figured out he could sell marijuana without getting arrested by becoming legit and opening a "lab". That lab has taken him down some interesting roads and now tests THC/CBD, soils, water, asbestos, etc. You have a need, he has a test. The job had a casual atmosphere and sounded kind of fun, if not a little precarious. The interview went along swimmingly, and I think I had the job in the bag....UNTIL he mentioned that the bookkeeper was their backup receptionist. I asked a few questions and stopped the interview. They needed their bookkeeper to work one 8 hours shift behind the receptionist counter. Behind a sheet of plexiglass. With mandatory masks. In an office located right on a busy street. I could not hear one word the receptionist said. I had no reason to believe it would be any different from the otherside of the plexiglass. Feeling low, low in value, having little t...