An Invincible Summer - A Woman's Journey

 2023 was a year of highs and lows. The beauty of it is that I no longer let the highs and lows define my existence. My focus is broader and allows a bigger view of the world so that the lows are buffered with beauty and the highs are tempered with gratitude. The end of the holidays marks the leaving of my kids. They came. ALL OF THEM CAME, and I marveled at having them near, of getting to know their faces that are a bit older than the last time I saw them, of hearing their voices with new maturity, of taking pleasure as they interact and start to realize that each of them holds memories of each other that are precious. I felt like I was in a bubble of pure wonder.  What I had to offer was a safer version of me, a more predictable, less manipulative human. I’m not really afraid anymore. Fear is not in the driver seat. I have loved this visit and I will love when it gets back to normal. I am a creature of habit. Changing it up has been fabulous but my body will be more content ...

She Let Go   She let go. She let go. Without a thought or a word, she let go. She let go of the fear. She let go of the judgments. She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head. She let go of the committee of indecision within her. She let go of all the ‘right’ reasons. Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go.   She didn’t ask anyone for advice. She didn’t read a book on how to let go. She didn’t search the scriptures. She just let go.   She let go of all of the memories that held her back. She let go of all of the anxiety that kept her from moving forward. She let go of the planning and all of the calculations   about how to do it just right. She didn’t promise to let go. She didn’t journal about it. She didn’t write the projected date in her Day-Timer. She made no public announcement and put no ad in the paper. She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily horoscop...